One day this whole blog thing will be about you..

So my life isnt great at the moment. Im very ill. Too ill for people to know how bad it is.My rabbit died today and i fell sick again. Still that doesnt change how much i love you. Sometimes i think i love you more than my family, because now im older they seem to care less and less about me. Thing is the only reason i want to live is that tiny little worthless bit of hope that one day you will love me too. The thing that makes it worse is that i know you wont. EVER. So i dont even get why i bother. I wish i was born just a few years earlier so i would have had more time to get to know you. I clearly dont know alot about you and vise versa and i find that really well sad because you seem like such a great girl.I know you are and i just cant help what i feel. Every single second i think about you. Surely it cant be good for me but hey you make me that little bit happier every time i think about you, so i guess there is a point to me living after all. That point is so you always will have someone that loves you. Someone that will listen(even though you would never talk to me about anything) and someone that would be there for you whenever/if ever you needed it. To you i may just be the shadow in the corner of the room but you to me are the bright light right in the centre showing me the way and admiring you the whole time.